WHEN YOU GO

All the houses look the same, that's the first thing anybody says when they come here

Coal camp houses all in rows, some falling in, some two-stories still have two front doors

I cursed this place when I was young for cursing me with a broken tongue

And hiding the horizon from my view

But these days I keep thinking of the land whose shoulders block the sun

And people who make music like I do

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I worry that my best isn't any good anywhere but here

Sometimes I think of staying, I'd live up on a mountain and the fog in my head would clear

There's no way of saying that it took more than it gave when it's all you've known

But I do know, you can't leave it when you go

Consolidated Coal broke ground in 1912, built this town and brought the workers in

Gave them a store, paid them in scrip, and made indentured servants of the able-bodied men

My family came before the mines, road through Pound Gap trying to find a place to make a home up on a ridge

It makes it hard to leave when you've been living here 200 years, but I knew I had to go and so I did

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On that wall they painted names of men who spent their days in darkness, digging up the coal

Here's one of mine, in '63 two loading cars crushed both legs between his hips and knees

They said he'd never walk again, and doped him up on medicine that he kept taking after he was fine

His wife had bathed and dressed him but he left her and both their kids

My daddy says he still remembers crying

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BIG ENOUGH TO BE A MOUNTAIN

It hits me every time I cross that line

The pit of my gut, scooped out like a deep mine

I’m back in the context of you

Reliving everything I did and I did not do

This town’s like a still frame of itself

And when I come back, I’m the ghost of someone else

Here’s where your memory lives

So I got out, but a whole lotta good that did

I still feel it


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Grief big enough to be a mountain, a mountain big enough to have a name

I know by now I’m supposed to not love you

But I love you all the same

I keep waiting on that to change

I see you every time I fall asleep

Your eyes meet mine, that’s what breaks the dream

Then I’m numb the rest of the day

Trailed by a hollow feeling that I cannot shake

I watch your name move across their lips

They think I’m fine, I let ‘em go on thinking it

Breaking down won’t do anybody good

So I shore myself up with beams of borrowed wood

Jim Beam and Viibryd

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Grief big enough to be a mountain, a mountain big enough to have a name

I know by now I’m supposed to not love you

But I do

I keep waiting on that to change


 

YOU WERE MINE

You were born half-damned, anybody would give you that

They ignored you or they beat you with a coat rack

They had you hawking pills when you were seventeen

It ain’t no wonder you got so mean

It ain’t no wonder you got so bitter and so mean

A belly full of of devil cremes and alcohol

The easy throb of heroin and fentanyl

When they found you lying face down on the floor

I wonder if they knew what for

I wonder if they ever asked you what for

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I guess I’ll never know the whole truth, just the parts people tell me when they’re stoned

They always say they don’t wanna speak ill of the dead, but you’ve been gone

You’ve been gone

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You were no good, and you hurt me

You were everything I came to learn that I don’t wanna be

You were selfish and reckless most of the time

But you were mine


I only knew you during my forgetting years

I’ve got your mouth and eyes like yours but mine are clear

When I think about you now it’s like a dream

One that’s dark and hard to see

And the more I try to make it out, the quicker it leaves

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I remember knowing that I loved you, but even when I cried you wouldn’t stay

I’d sit in your lap, chew your hair while you smoked Winston Lights and I’d drift off

And you’d drift off

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You were no good, and you hurt me

You were everything I came to learn that I don’t wanna be

You were selfish and reckless most of the time

But you were mine


 

THE WAITING

What a miracle to be here at all

But here we are

In the same stretch of time

Dropped down, not knowing why or how

It all turns out

And so we wait here

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Will you wait with me

Will you come be by my side

I love you like the mountains love the warm sunrise

I love you

Is that all right

Our time here lingers like a morning fog

Then it’s gone

But still the days drag on

We could spend the endless hours sitting close

Then maybe we won’t

Mind the waiting

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Will you wait with me

Will you come be by my side

I love you like the west wind loves the strong, tall pine

I love you

Is that all right

When the gloaming comes, when the work is almost done

We’ll draw near

And we’ll think back on

How we cried, how sometimes it felt like flying

And how we both loved

The waiting

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Will you wait with me

Will you come be by my side

I love you like the warm sand loves the cooling tide

I love you

Is that all right


 

WHEN I’M GONE

When I’m gone, throw out the things you know will hurt my momma

The fifth of bourbon and the marijuana

And the pictures that we took when we were down in Mexico

And all the words I wrote

When I’m gone, pick a nice dress for me to wear

Pay that woman Beth to do my hair

And do my makeup, make sure she makes me look like myself

Even though I’m somewhere else

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I had more good days than bad

Make sure that you tell them that

And tell them that they did all they could do

And know that wherever I am, I’ll be missing you too

Call that girl, the one who sings the anthem at the home games

Have her do “Amazing Grace,” “Uncloudy Day,”

And “True Love,” the Patsy one, my sister’s favorite song

Don’t let the preacher go too long

If you see him, tell the one who broke my heart that I forgave him

It took some time, but his unkindness was a favor

It made me stronger, and helped me understand what I didn’t know

Sometimes all that’s left is letting go

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There ain’t nothing I’d take back

Make sure that you tell them that

Even though you know that it’s not true

And know that wherever I am, I’ll be missing you too

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I had more good days than bad

Make sure that you tell them that

And tell them that they did all they could do

And know that wherever I am, I’ll be missing you too